Thanks

Sae young

17-Feb-2009 11:29pm

10 more days to say good nite to u... Dear :) Good nite sweet dreams.

Received this msg just now, thanks for being so sweet to me, i'm appreciated. hear that you're going back Korea, was thinking is that my fault? or am i too harsh to you that day, scolded you over the phone. although you said sorry to me the next day and i still ignored, all the best to you, travel the whole world since you're still young ._.

anyway thanks for everything, sweet dream to you too :)

love this photo of you :)

to my NZ

you know i always online when i was a home, flip my facebook see who updated new photo, i stopped until i saw the group photo, Happy Vday 09

hope he can be more mature, and treat you nicer, i can see you throw everything out 不顾一切 to love him, and hope he can really spend more time on you.. i can see he is a good husband but not a good boyfriend ;)

bear in mind.. you will get a good husband in future, you just need to educate him, your money is my money, my money is still my money, wakakakaka you will get the the one whom love you with all his heart ^^

to Jess

2/17/2009 7:51:40 PM JESS.★- :( ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 dear 2/17/2009 7:51:44 PM ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 JESS.★- :(  ? 2/17/2009 7:52:07 PM JESS.★- :( ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 you like me?

2/17/2009 7:55:18 PM ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 JESS.★- :( yes we're very very good cyber couple :) 

2/17/2009 7:55:37 PM JESS.★- :( ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 i see. 

2/17/2009 7:55:40 PM JESS.★- :( ® - 为什么对你舍不得 总是我。。 okay 

I know you for 5 years plus thru a game call Justic war x 2, that time you call me dear all in a sudden, and you become my ingame dear, after that you MIA for sometime and you pops out again, you always give me funny funny trouble, always kaciao me here and there and now you throw me this question ._.

we're very good friend aren't we? i was pretty shock after knowing this.. we still can remain as good friend right? ^^

被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦，所以我是幸福的。谢谢 Sae young, 娘子和 Jess (:

棋局

人生不如意十之八九，这熟悉的话，想必你也听腻了吧。最近真得很不如意，朋友为了钱吵架，为了女人吵架，这通常是会发生在男人的身上，无奈。总觉得自己没做错，矛头还是指向你，你就是要道歉，我没错，干吗要道歉？我退一步，他不就能爬到我头上来吗？到最后，会出风凉话 “ 哎哟，那人很随便的啦，软软的，好欺负 ” 我觉得人还是要有自己的坚持。我就不道歉。真的，大家都知道，我是为了你们好，我才走那一步。到最后，没想到，我的棋被你吃了。难道人生就真的要像下棋那样，至人于死地吗？

怎么最近我都好像下错棋，头很痛，不想下了，做人要小心点，圆滑点，看远点，看清点。你这样就错了，你也不能那样，这样会比较好，走这步就他就没有办法吃你。高人的指点，不能不听，不过就好烦。很烦，超烦。你又不能按你的想法走。傀儡吗？不是，是经验吗？是吧。。

头很晕，头很痛，一大堆烂摊子要收，不收，就会少了几只棋子。收了，就掀了底牌，那个棋是不是你的。他是不是帮你的。还是敌人，趁机摆你一道。要知道怎样应变，不然他就可以趁机将军，时间。很重要，几时要走，几时要停。没有分先后，能走就走，时间不等人，棋盘上没有限制，自由发挥。最终目的，至人于死地。

想要有个女朋友，陪在我身边，当我走错一步，摸摸我的头，支持我走下去。不需要说话，我承担后果。好累。

Birthday

Skip the Happy on purpose, cause on of my friend birthday last 2 weeks, and her msn wrote,

happy birthday is a word,
and
birthday is a fact.

my birthday is coming in 2 days time, what to do? celebrate in T.G.I.F? Clubs? or Bbq? which one sounds nicer? a bit lazy to make decision...

To those youngster who want to celebrate your "happy" birthday, just to share some experience here, cause held a birthday party isn't that easy, so you have to take care everyone, to be more considerate, have to think, who are more convenient to come, who doesn't, who need to work the day after, who cannot come on time, this and that, especially when you have a lots of friends.

i tried to celebrate my 21'st birthday in club, bad experience, i spend over thousand on my friends, they come late with a stupid face written "why you choose this place. is so bloody hard to get a parking lot" on their face. ofcus the place is hot thats why people are choosing here. so in my life time, i won't celebrate my birthday in club again. is like, SOB i spend for my birthday and i still have to entertain you, what's wrong men?

i'm totally off to celebrate my birthday, was thinking go for a dinner, so friend suggest, how about this year we get some food bbq or steamboat at my house, hahs.. should be alright (:

advice: to the person you think you're their best friend, you call them brother or sister they might not think the same, or they never treat you as brother before, and those who helps you a lot, play with you, pain with you, share or even cry with you. they are the one.

几米 - 夫妻

1。他是个哑巴，虽然能听懂别人的话，却说不出自己的感受 2。她是他的邻居，一个和外婆相依为命的女孩。
3。她一直喊他哥哥。他真象个哥哥，带她上学，伴她玩耍，含笑听她唧唧喳喳讲话。他只用手势和她交谈，可能她能读懂他的每一个眼神。从哥哥注视她的目光里，她知道他有多么喜欢自己。
4。他们从小一起玩耍，一起长大
5。后来，她终于考上了大学，非常开心
6。他便开始拼命挣钱，然后源源不断地寄给她。她从来没有拒绝。
7。终于， 她毕业了，参加了工作。 然后，她坚定地对他说：'哥哥，我要嫁给你！'
8。他象只受惊的兔子逃掉了，再也不肯见她，无论她怎样哀求。
9。她这样说：'你以为我同情你吗？想报答你吗？不是，我12岁我就爱上你了。'可是，她得不到他的回答。
10。有一天，她突然住进了医院。他吓坏了，跑去看他。医生说，她喉咙里长了一个瘤，虽然切除了，却破坏了声带，可能再也讲不了话了。病床上，她泪眼婆娑的注视着他。11。于是，他们结婚了。很多年，没有人听他们讲过一句话。他们用手，用笔，用眼神交谈，分享喜悦和悲伤。他们成了相恋男女羡慕的对象。人们说，那一对多么幸福的哑夫妻啊。12。爱情阻挡不了死神的降临，他撇下她一个人先走了。人们怕她经受不住失去爱侣的打击来安慰她。
13。她收回注视他遗像的呆痴目光，突然开口说：'他还是走了。'谎言已揭穿了…… 14。人们惊讶之余，都感叹不已，这是一份多么执着的、深厚的、像童话一样的爱呀！从此，她不再讲话，不久也离开了人世。
15。相恋中的男女仍会拿他们当作谈论的话题，他们常说，你听过那对哑夫妻的故事吗？默默爱你，直到永远……

I was like...

Hi guys ;)

long time never update my blog, anyway i don't think got fans out there.. lol, i'm not any handsome guy or chio bu, just post and share some thought..

lot's of thing cock up lately, almost defeated, so i choose to avoid, avoid face to face argument, i tried to be calm, silent is gold.. lazy to explain, i'm always lazy other than count money *wink*

friend only, no big deal. 在家靠父母，出外靠朋友 both also can't trust then only can rely on myself. i earn my bucks and pay my bill, sounds cool =)

typing all this with this song *keep repeating*



love this song :)

its called Regina Spektor - Fidelity

Single forever

After reading my friend's blog, Mr.Victor suddenly give me a thought, those playful
socialable guy are harder to get gf, even how sincere they are.. lolx

i just don't feel like holding a bird *don't think dirty -_-"* hang around the street when i was 60 years old..

i also forgot how long i stay single since my last gf? aiyo... who will remember this, just approximately 2 years gua.. anyway confess is getting harder for me, and i wont be so thick skin to say i love you infront of so many ppl, mayb this is the thing i lack of gua.. anyway i don't feel like stay single anymore, but still waiting my destiny angel to appear ):

DON'T FORCE ME TO DO LIKE THIS!!!

to spread my name card like germ over the shopping center! ROFL



this one even hilarious.



or sing Only you for her! to prove how she mean to you! LMAO

anyway what a boring post! bye~

Reality

My friend whoever from Apiit should understand this stupid bloody diagram right? yea, this is the MC a.k.a Medical Certificate system for my company, we got a funny + stupid diagram specially created for the person who do not read, just like me this bloody monkey! *sorry I'm sick now and i lost my temper* luckily I'm smart enough to inform my HOD-IT one day earlier and let her know that I'm not feeling well, diarrhea and stomaches is so irritating! arghhhhh....

anyway read the diagram, the second and third procedure, you sick... and you MUST console doctor, what? if never console a doctor, you're not a qualified patient? the worst thing is, if you never console doctor, you must report to school immediately! it's so ridiculous! i know distance is not an issue to bring up if you are late, but i think sick is different cases right?

Good luck my lao po..

My 6 yrs old pc is my dearest lao po, it has been accompany me thru wind wind rain rain*风风雨雨 in chinese (:

Pentium4 2.4GHz
512DDR Ram *now increase to 1.25GB
80Gb Maxtor 7200Rpm

can you believe that? my comp without Cd-rom since 6 yrs ago? normally i use online download, online transfer, network transfer and thumb drive to install any software that i wan..

and now.. my computer effected virus (:

such a joke, I'm Information Technology Assist in school, always deal with problem and troubleshoot failure, and now i cant cure my comp...

i think is time to change one comp (: *wink*

Enlarge the picture, you can see there is Flash10.exe, Marcomedia.exe, Apple Mobile Device and some useless program, they eaten up so much of my memory, and the best part is i didn't run them at all *see my taskbar*, i go to

start > run > msconfig

to double confirmed that i never run it at start up, but it automatically run under my background.. that means it's some virus which using Micromedia.exe to cover their true face.

can you see how much is my CPU performance? with winamp, msn, firefox, avg and bitcomet, it run like 21%+ some time hit 50%, really crap...

do you notice there is a HELP ME? no matter how many time i delete it, it will still appear a the same place and position..

the worst part is i can't login as safe mode and edit my registry, and i have been blocked away from changing the window registry, it says that i don't have administrator's right to perform editing..

i actually got no DVD rom, since when that idiot virus give me one -.-

arrrrrgghhhhhhhhh.........

who can solve it?

*latest update ):

my lao po a.k.a computer is officially death! yesterday i tried a new Anti-Virus software, which is Macafee, after a deep scan, my lao po effected 24 virus, i Remove and Quarantine some of it, and i went restart.. until now my comp cant start probably..

anyway just here by to intro why this senario happen on me? and teach you how to avoid the virus?

in average everyday there is more than a milion virus created by some computer freak, some of them is harmful which is virus, some of them just to advertise their product, that is spyware.

How to differentiate both of them? virus is more to frustration, means they might close up your pc in middle of no where, or keep restart itself, spyware is more to annoying, which comes out a lot pop up box when you surfing net.

Using an anti virus isn't useful when a powerful virus attack your roots *roots means - H_KEY those registry*, when your anti virus detected virus and delete it without fail, don't be so happy, actually the right procedure is to record all the virus and went into safe mode and delete it, but i just too lazy to keep login and logout, so i just delete all, and result GG to my lao po..

cause some of the stupid virus actually effected to my H_KEY a.k.a roots, once i delete them, eventually i delete my own system file, the file might be essential for me to boot up my computer, and now.. without that registry, my comp cannot be start up successfully ):

the only way to cure my lao po is reformat my whole computer.. so i'm going to say good bye to my almost 2 thousand songs, few series of taiwan nice drama... FUCK! somemore my mother board survived after 2 lightning strike, i doubt my IDE still can use...

anyway i think can't..

omfg!

The recent me

Recently all post those nonsense, today post some serious thingy, i just done my 牌匾, nice? Actually i wanted to put a Wifi enable beside one, but too busy here and there, so i never put it in, else sure very funny, when i bring along my 牌匾 then automatic got wifi, lolx

Roytheroyale reporter:

DJ Tiësto

Dj Tiesto held a concert at Port Dickson today, and i couldn't go for it, super disappoint.. damn
he just simply the best.. my IDOL! still remember last time i missed his concert at Sepang, i scolded myself for don't know how many days.. and this time i missed again! cry no tears lo.. if he come to Singapore, Die Die also must go! and now I'm going to play one of the best song he played, anyway forgot to tell you all, he is a Trance Dj, that means only loud music, just plain music, ROCKS! and it's the Element of life tour.. :(

Just for your info, Dj Tiesto is the first person, who starts One men show, One Great Dj, One Huge Concert, One Grand Stage.. and only loud music..

DJ Tiësto-Traffic


and here is the element of life official video


and this one is live


familiar with this song? it's pirate of the caribbean!

although not complete, but you can feel the atmosphere, and now the concert still going on... ):

Photo

Quite Emo, so get online check friendster, a place i won't spend more then 5 min per day.
*since today i got nothing better to do*

today just to intro some friends, some designer friends.. i love to watch their photo, very artistic

Alexia, my Secondary friend, same name as wen, people always misunderstand who is who ):

and this is my dear wen (: and they always get the wrong name.

R E P L A Y, my Secondary friend as well, study at TOA, can view his blog at
"Other then royale"

My God Sis: Jasmine *at left bottom that picture, the guy beside her is her bf, with a tattoo on his neck, a bird (:
p/s: he quite famous in tattoo, any lobang can find me, i'll help you contact him (:

My long lost contact friend: Christina from Hong Kong *she isn't designer, she is a dancer, but i just simply like this kinda photo*

The first and the pro-est designer i ever know, attracted by every picture she taken, this photo i believe taken by her bf *as i know is pro photographer too* don't you think this picture very meaningful?

photo taken by: Sin

it might seems easy.. but did you think of this idea before?

she draw herself

and i put this photo as ending.. i found it quite interesting,

a person who came view my profile, same graduate from TOA, actually i was planned to study design instead of IT, but anyway luckily i chose IT, I'm not that kinda person who always got new idea.. else i will declare brain death and fix in pig brain.

------------------------

Just received a phone, my friend's father passed away, i forgot how many person that i know passed away since my father passed away, i quite sensitive to go back the funeral place, cause i stay there for a week when my father passed away. and my friend ask me go pay a console, i was thinking want go or not.. frustrated..

Emo

* I need gf

* I miss all my friend in Kuala Lumpur

* I want some alcohol

Enjoy now or enjoy later?

Conclusion : work hard..















Play harder +

live fast

die pretty.

my way

+Roytheroyale

其实每个男孩 II

你有看过我以前的一个post吗？其实每个男孩 最近老是在想，这篇文章好像有板有眼，但心里知道总是缺少了些什么。直到今天我翻开friendster看，看到了我以前的一个朋友的女朋友，他有了新男朋友。。突然茅塞顿开。。

我从

十九岁的时候，高考了。终于和自己暗恋的女孩分别，坐火车去学校的时候，感觉自己离她越来越远，心像被掏空了一样。还在想自己一定不会忘记她，等到自己成功以后一定要去找她。

　　二十岁的时候，听到有人讲黄色笑话，觉得这人真可耻。

　　二十一岁的时候，她的回信中告诉他，自己有了男朋友。偷偷的哭了一个晚上。

　　二十二岁的时候，他向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我还小。”他想，我的确是个好人，他说“没关系，我可以等你。”心想，我不会像那些花心的人一样，三年五年我也能等。

　　二十三岁的时候，说自己还小的女孩和一个帅哥恋爱了。他很纳闷，长大原来可以这快。

　　二十四岁的时候，他又向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我并不适合你。”他纳闷很久，我是好人你怎么还不适合我呢？

开始改。。

十九岁的时候，开始读大学了，认识了一个很好的女孩。在穷追不舍下，终于把她追到手了

　　二十岁的时候，男孩觉得在课堂里所吸取的知识不足以继承家业，决定中途辍学，以充当爸爸的左右手，有了固定的收入，至少能满足女朋友的需求。

　　二十一岁的时候，女孩提出了分手，原因是男孩没有时间陪她，男孩很伤心。他心想，我有什么条件比他差？为什么你会选择一个看不到将来的人，也不选择一个将来一片光明的呢？朋友们都帮他愤愤不平。

　　二十二岁的时候，他心想，她 应该玩够了，是时候回头了，怎么苦等了一年，她一点反应也没有，在friendster里，望着她和他的照片，心如刀割。

　　二十三岁的时候，他觉得等下去是没用的，不如再找个好女孩吧。朋友都对他说 “不要为了一棵树，而放弃了整座森林” 其实他的心理已经开始怯场了，二十三岁了哦，可能下一个就是结婚的对象，太小又怕沟通不来，平岁又怕她还完不够。

　　二十四岁的时候，当男孩在生意上已有一定的基础，他在也找不到一个纯纯的恋爱，喜欢她的女孩都是因为他的钱而来，大家都想吊个金龟。他腻了，决定做个玩世不恭的少爷。

二十五岁的时候，每次跟朋友出来喝茶，身边总带着不同的漂亮妹妹，座着他的崭新的轿车，朋友们都羡慕不已，可是他心想，他在也找不到真爱了。

对吗？

最长的电影
作词：周杰伦　作曲：周杰伦

我们的开始　
是很长的电影
放映了三年　
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾　
脑海中还在旋转
望着你　慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间　
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的　
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来　
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

朦胧的时间　
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的　
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来　
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

最近爱上这首歌，尤其是他的

爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

New job

from the logo i think you all should know who I'm going to work with, right? yea, i might work for HP a.k.a Hewlett Packard, just maybe! MAYBE! everything still depends on tomorrow's interview, but i fall sick in this critical moment! with my heavy body and super dizzy head, i don't know how to "shows" my confident and knowledge tomorrow..

let's don't talk so far yet, how to get to the destination is the key point now, at least i can reach the place, the rest shouldn't be a problem.. Chinese got an old word to describe the situation now! ship reach front port will auto straight!* get what i means?* and i truly believe that, hope it won't betray me by tomorrow! you know what? I'm a Malaysian, how should i know where is the place by just giving me the address? yea, he did! he just give me the address and say, " Roy you must reach there before 3pm, in order to have another session of interview to define your position of the technology assistant! " and i replied " okay! " *stupid me -.-*

and i found this webby! http://www.streetdirectory.com/ it contain Singapore and Malaysia street directory! and i key in my address..

438B Alexandra Technopark

Block B, Lobby 1, Level 5

Singapore 119968

tada!
Okay! my first step of success! but.. i don't drive in Singapore, so i gotta find the nearest MRT station, so i click on "What's Nearby!"

and i saw! hm.. 4 MRT nearby, next time work can senang abit la.. so i look at the detail below, how far is the distance from MRT to my "might" working place! i was a stunned and i can't imagine how far is 2km..

	Queenstown MRT - Entrance/Exit A Distance : 2.02 km away Located : Queenstown

watch this

see the star? the red color star? i gotta walk from there! to...

the bottom left of the image! Wookie! gg.com.sg! assume that, i takes one hr from my house to Singapore, and i take MRT about 20min to reach Queens town, and use 20min to walk 2.02km, so next time u will see me participate in some long run competition!


anyway, I'm glad if i can get that job! =D *eh-em! good pay*

其实每个女孩...

其实每个女孩……

其实每个女孩，本来都是天使；
其实每个女孩，本来都有着天真的笑容；
其实每个女孩，本来都是敞开心扉地对待周围的一切；
其实每个女孩，本来都是相信爱情的；

十岁以前，不成熟的感情占着生命中很少的一部分；

十三、四岁的时候，女孩喜欢一个男孩，但是女孩什么也不敢说，只和他讨论下题、开开玩笑，听同伴说着喜欢他，就大义凛然的说“我帮你啊！”，心里酸酸的；

十五岁的时候，听到大人们说某某女人很坏，和丈夫离婚了，把孩子扔给他的奶奶，和有钱的大款走了。那时候，女孩觉得这人是妖精，自己将来一定做一个好妻子，一心一意地爱自己的爱人；

十六岁的时候，她喜欢上了同桌的男孩，但是她没有告诉他，和平时一样，老师提问题的时候把笔记本悄悄的递给他，有时候帮他讲讲题，只是每次他去打篮球，她都躲在角落里悄悄地看他打球。她觉得只要看他快乐就可以了；

十七岁的时候，有个男孩喜欢上了她，她却说，我们只能做朋友，因为她心中一直有着那个她喜欢的男孩。她和他有着同样的执著，她会等他的；

十八岁的时候，看了一个MTV，感动得哭了。她想：如果那个男孩不能再站起来了，她会成为他的双腿，陪着他到天涯海角，陪着他慢慢变老；

十九岁的时候，高考了，她终于有勇气和他告白，却碰见了他和他的女朋友，女孩微笑着为他们祝福，默默地流泪，又默默地祝福。她觉得她必须离开，她不能破坏他们；

　二十岁的时候，有个男孩喜欢女孩，说要爱她一辈子。女孩很感动，接受了男孩；

　二十一岁的时候，男孩开始向女孩发脾气，女孩从来不和他生气，女孩相信他们的爱情是世界上的奇迹，他们会相爱一辈子；

　二十二岁的时候，男孩一次又一次的骗她，她开始默默流泪；

　二十三岁的时候，男孩有了另一个女孩，让她不许打扰他和那个女孩，她很伤心，问他自己哪里做的不好，他说你哪里都很好，问他自己哪儿不如那个女孩，男孩说：你哪里都比她好；

　二十四岁的时候，男孩对她说：我一生没做过什么后悔的事情，但是，离开你，我后悔一辈子。

　二十五岁的时候，另一个男孩向她表白，说会爱她一辈子，她说我不能和你在一起，因为，她开始不信了；

　二十六岁的时候，女孩答应了一个男孩，因为父母希望她有个依靠，那个男孩说，我会好好疼你，不让你流泪；

　二十七岁的时候，他离开了女孩，他只会说：我对不起你。她转身离开了，从此，她习惯了伤感与流泪；

　二十八岁的时候，他和女孩说：我很后悔，我们可以重新来过吗？她回绝了，她已经不相信任何感情了，也不相信爱情了；

　二十九岁的时候，她发现，没有男人会再说爱她了，她也不会再爱上任何男人了。

　三十岁的时候，她想要一个孩子，却不想要一个家庭。

于是她在自己的QQ上写下了如下的话：
　其实每个女孩，本来都是天使；
其实每个女孩，本来都有着天真的笑容；
其实每个女孩，本来都是敞开心扉地对待周围的一切；
其实每个女孩，本来都是相信爱情的；

　只是，没有任何男孩喜欢这样的女孩，他们觉得这样的女孩太冷漠，太多疑，一点都没有女人味；于是女孩开始改变，开始虚伪地对待周围的人事，开始学会和男人形式上的交往，开始学会适应男人的幽默，女孩和形形色色的男人出入不同的酒吧，却从未真正的醉过，从来不对任何人说出自己心中的话。开始学会用一切方法保护自己。女人成为男人不屑的那种女人。

　她们从容的应对着所有的男人但是她们在没人看到的角落里任凭眼泪一滴一滴的落下。她看着男人们寻找纯真善良的女孩时，只是微微的笑笑。

其实每个男孩 ....

其实每个男孩 ....

十二岁以前，就不说了，无非是淘气和不懂事。

　　十三、四岁的时候，开始对女孩有好感，但是那时候他离女孩远远的，并且以讨厌女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。

　　十五岁的时候，听到大人们说某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自杀了。他觉得这人真狠毒，自己将来一定要做个痴情的男人，一定要一生只爱一个人。

　　十六岁的时候，他喜欢上了一个女孩，但是他不敢和她说。仍然和往常一样，脏兮兮的在灰土飞扬的操场上踢球。只在女孩走出校门的时候，躲在二层的窗户上看她的背影,他觉得她一定是个天使。

　　十七岁的时候，有个女孩喜欢上了他，但是他离她很远，他心里面只有自己那个女孩，他觉得看别的女孩都是对她的不忠。

　　十八岁的时候，看了一个MTV，感动得想哭，他想，如果自己的女孩失去了双眼，他一定男主角会毫不犹豫的把自己的眼睛给她，让她能看到光明。

　　十九岁的时候，高考了。终于和自己暗恋的女孩分别，坐火车去学校的时候，感觉自己离她越来越远，心像被掏空了一样。还在想自己一定不会忘记她，等到自己成功以后一定要去找她。

　　二十岁的时候，听到有人讲黄色笑话，觉得这人真可耻。

　　二十一岁的时候，她的回信中告诉他，自己有了男朋友。偷偷的哭了一个晚上。

　　二十二岁的时候，他向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我还小。”他想，我的确是个好人，他说“没关系，我可以等你。”心想，我不会像那些花心的人一样，三年五年我也能等。

　　二十三岁的时候，说自己还小的女孩和一个帅哥恋爱了。他很纳闷，长大原来可以这快。

　　二十四岁的时候，他又向一个女孩表白，女孩说“你是个好人，可是我并不适合你。”他纳闷很久，我是好人你怎么还不适合我呢？

　　二十五岁的时候，他又追求一个女孩，女孩接受了他。他开始很幸福的为未来拼搏，他想，一时的开心只是暂时的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快乐的未来， 但是，半年以后，女孩和他分手了。只是因为另外一个男孩会说让她开心的话。女孩说“你是个好人，是我对不起你。”他似乎明白了问题所在，他是个好人。

　　二十六岁的时候，他开始堕落，交网友。打扮得时尚而酷，而且渐渐的学习着讨好女孩的话。不久，他有了个女朋友，虽然他对她也很好，可是，他心里知道，自己并不爱她。

　　二十七岁的时候，他和女孩分手了。他对女孩说“你是个好女孩，是我对不起你。”

　　二十八岁的时候，他尝试了一夜情，发现别人能做的，自己也一样。

　　二十九岁的时候，他学会了讲黄色笑话，并且以看旁边的女孩子脸红为乐趣。

　　三十岁的时候，他忽然发现自己变得很有能力追求到女孩，但是却没有了爱的能力。于是，他在自己QQ上写下了如下的话:

　　

其实每个男孩，本来都是想做一个感情专一的好男人的。
　　其实每个男孩，本来看女孩子都是看脸而不是胸部的。
　　其实每个男孩，本来都是不会讲黄色笑话的。
　　其实每个男孩，本来都是渴望爱一个人直到永远的。

　　只是，没有任何女孩爱这样的男孩，她们觉得这样的男孩太幼稚，太古板，没有情趣。
　　于是男孩开始改变，变成女孩喜欢的那种嘴角挂着坏坏的笑，玩世不恭或者幽默。开始学会说甜言蜜语而不是心里想说的话。开始学会假装关心，学会给女孩送小饰物讨好她，学会如何追求，如何把握爱情。或者看破红尘，游戏情场，成为女人恨恨的那种男人。
　　他们可以很容易俘获女孩子的心，但是他们也会在黑的夜里叼着烟流泪。心里有爱的时候，没有女孩。有了女孩，却永远没有了爱的感觉。在听到女人抱怨世上没有一个好男人时候，他们不会再去努力做个好男人，只是微笑着擦肩而过。

The first week in johor..

Sad to say this.. the first week I'm in johor.. i found out that, i lose some friends, i lose my happiness, I'm not strong enough.. i felt lonely.. I'm bored in johor, what to do? i chose the path that never been taken before, and this is my own path, I'm gonna survive in this shitty situation from now on! because of this is the only way that i can see my future, pray that i'm not wrong, no one is holding me.. yea, mentally support isn't enough.. the 7 days in johor, i waked up by the sound of quarrel everyday, the time when I'm at home is the time to quarrel (Ok, with my mom in, i can't quarrel with wall), i'm fed up, once again think of going back to KL, but i think it's impossible for me to make it happen again..

and i felt great great loneliness, greater then everyone would felt, cause I'm afraid of loneliness, tomorrow going to Singapore to sign agreement to confirm that i will work in NewStead for at least 1 year.. i will just work like a wooden puppet for 1 year, the word "what's next" gotta wait for another year.. hope the situation can change after i start work.. bless me :(

i only hang out with some specified friend in these days, which can be counted by either one of my hand, when you grow up, you need to decide who you gotta mix with, the brighter one or the darker one.. the brighter one which can discuss serious stuff like your ambition and your career, and the darker one which can bring you fall to no where..

To my cousin Kim :
you already 16, choose your friend carefully, normally sec friend will spend the longest time with you, don't get influent easily, think right or wrong before you do anything :)

*although you in girl's school, but every way is the same :)

i admit that i got friend whom selling DVD in shopping complex, selling drugs in Disco, gangster fight behind the street, Drugs addict.. so? what to do? they turn bad after sec.. what i can do just only leave them one by one, when i realize, i left no one..

currently no friend in JB, anyone wanna b my friend? LOL
I found this in my room, taken when i was 2~3 years old.. cute? i think so ;)

and now, the friendless Roy, just like an angel without wing..